Affirmation 9/7/17

Is there bad in the world? Of course, there is. Is there good in the world? Absolutely. I believe there is more good than bad, but bad is louder. So many tiny good, seemingly mundane things are happening all of the time that they don’t stand out anymore. Tragedy strikes and gets a voice because it is uncommon. We don’t do news reports on average events. That doesn’t mean there is good. Stop right now. Take stock. Examine the good. Start by counting yourself.

I’m glad you’re here.

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Affirmation 8/3/17

This is important, because you are important, so please pay attention.

Your voice matters. What you have to say, how you feel, what you think. Those things matter. They are significant. They are your experience, and that is valid. You are valid. You hear me? You matter. Your voice matters. Your heart matters. You matter.

I’m glad you’re here.

Affirmation 6/9/17

Affirmation 1/20/17

Deep breath. While you are strong and powerful and capable, you are not the only one. We need you, but we all need you. We all need each other. We’re in this together, every single one of us. Let’s gather all of our strength and power. Let’s raise our voices. Let’s fight and stand and love together.

I’m glad you’re here.

Affirmation 1/19/17

Friend, it is so important to feel and to be heard. Remember you aren’t the only one with a voice. Take time to hear those around you. It is okay to be still and to listen. You’ll get your chance to speak. Make sure that others do as well.

I’m glad you’re here.

Adventure in I will be better

I realize that January is nearly over, but I’m pretty crap at making resolutions for the new year. I’m almost as bad about making them as the rest of you are at keeping them. I can’t disappoint myself if I never make a promise to me. I also can’t do much growing that way either. So after some consideration I’ve decided that without making strong commitmenty sounding words I’m going to try at these things.

I want to be better at being alone. I spend 90 percent of my time alone these days, and I complain about it a lot. But only because it’s really hard. It’s so much harder than I thought it would be. I lived by myself for a year at college, but I wasn’t really alone then was I? Not with hundreds of people around every day.

In that same vein I want to stop being so fearful in my solitude. It offers me so much, including constant opportunity to be alone and undistracted with God. It also offers me the chance to step out of my door and do the things no one else in my life ever wants to do with me. This Saturday I’ll start pursuing those things by going to the art museum. I’ll go to the movies I want to see. I’ll go to theatre productions. I’m probably not back on board yet with going to dinner alone, but I’ve done it before. Maybe by the end of the year I’ll be stronger.

I will take risks in the new church community I’m pursuing. I will sign up for classes that interest me even though I know no one, because who could I ask to go with me? Who better to take than Christ. Christ beside me. The Spirit speaking.

My friends Brett and Erica and I want to run the Fort Wayne mini marathon together, so I suppose I should get better at this running thing. It goes well in phases. And then I remember that there are cookies that can be delivered right to my door in the middle of the night. Discipline and self-control.

I want to be better at listening to the Spirit. I want to be better at understanding how the Holy Spirit directs me, and I want to be better at discerning my weird desires from the Spirit’s weird proddings.

I will take risks in the new church community I’m pursuing. I will sign up for classes that interest me even though I know no one, because who could I ask to go with me? Who better to take than Christ. Christ beside me. The Spirit speaking.

Speaking up. Over the course of the last seven months I’ve lost my voice and my strength. I want it back, and I’m going to take risks in that. It’s scary, and it will be hard. But I can’t feel silent anymore. I don’t need to be loud. I just need to know that I’m sitting idly by as I watch injustice exist. I will raise my voice. I will shout. I will try.

I will do my best. I will try to be better. I will try.