It’s been another long, hard year. Longer and harder than the last, and while there are three assaults, several things quit, several breakdowns, and three jobs to account for, I can proudly say that I believe I’m coming out on top at the end of this year.
I know the year isn’t out yet, but it’s coming quickly to a close. By December 31 I’ll have written another 365 affirmations. I’ll have baked dozens of pies. I’ll have walked away from an abusive relationship. I’ll have found myself happier than I’ve ever been. I’ll have a year’s worth of performances. I’ll have been carried every day by the amazing people around me.
To all of you who kept me alive, kept me moving, let me walk away, encouraged me to care for myself, pushed me to get medicated, to go to therapy, sat in waiting rooms, gave rides, made food, shared drinks, shared pies, laughed, cried, and made this year so much more survivable than it should have been, I cannot thank you enough. There will never be the right words to tell you all how grateful I am. I’m truly glad you’re here, and to be honest, I’m glad I am too.
Even when the president was a garbage monster, I was overwhelmed by the turnout at the Women’s March in Fort Wayne.
Even if some of the people involved never want to do it again, some experiments were incredibly fun.
Even before hearts could break these beautiful people carried me…
All of the way to Hamilton.
Even when I was terrified, trying something new turned out to be worth it.
Even when 30 sounded overwhelming, I ended up having the best birthday of my life because of the best people in my life.Even when you have to change venues and start again, only to have it better than before.
Even when overwhelmed by nerves…
There’s still always Danny!
And this sweet angel.
Even when anxiety and heartache took some of the best of me, I overcame them because friends are incredible.
Even though it was a lot of miles, Andy Kindler is one of the greatest treasures of the year.
Even when I lost, I still got completely empowered on stage.
Even when persuaded to play games, I was still in the comfort of loving friends.
Even when middle schoolers become frustrating, with the right partner…They’re the very best.
When palm readings are grossly inaccurate, best friends still have perfect times.
When exhausted by our own projects…
Can still find time to support other buddies.Because pie and poetry will always bring people together.
When Creative30for30 continues to push you.When months of work finally pay off.And there are so many new buddies to be made.Helping keep you grounded and alive when the only reason they do is because they’re good and kind.When you get the opportunity again to be someone you admire.When you aren’t sure what you agreed to, but you’re so glad you did it.When the person you talk to the most, adore the most, love the most, stops being your wonderful cat, but someone who reads Harry Potter with you and keeps you balanced.It’s been a hard, hard year. I don’t know that they’re going to get easier. I can only hope they can continue to be filled with this much love.