You do not owe anyone else anything. The only person you are obligated to is yourself. Deep breath. You can only control you. Take joy in that. You are not in charge of the actions of anyone, but you. That’s a beautiful relief and gift.
Warrior, you really have come so very far. You’ve conquered so much. You’ve accomplished a great deal. Sometimes that’s hard to see in the moment. Sometimes that’s hard to wrap your head around. That’s okay, I promise. Today, you don’t have to look at the whole picture, if you can’t handle it. So let’s just look at all of those tiny joys. That new podcast you love, the way flowers are starting to sprout from the ground, that new dish you tried to make, whatever tiny things are bringing you joy are just as valid as the amazing and huge accomplishments that you’ve made.
Hey. Listen to me. This, like you, is important. You are beautiful. Your persistence and determination are beautiful. Your work is beautiful. Your fight is beautiful. Your rests are beautiful. Your strength, joy, hurt are beautiful. Your heart is beautiful. Your mind is beautiful. Your body is beautiful. That body of yours is fighting to keep your here. It wants you to keep going, and so do I, beautiful one.
Deep breath. With each inhale bring in peace. With each exhale let go of worry. Inhale calm. Exhale doubt. Inhale joy. Exhale pain. Let each breath release self-destruction into the floor. Be fortified by a new day. You are in control of today.
You are, friend, are doing great things. Everyone will not always sing your praises. People may not even notice or acknowledge all that you are doing. That doesn’t mean you stop working. You aren’t doing it for the recognition. You are doing it because it is important to you. Continue to do it for that reason. Continue to do it for the love of it, joy of it, because you want to help or do or be. Because you want to. Continue.
Listen, I know it gets dark. I know how hard things can be. You’ve seen some terrible things. You’ve lived some terrible things. You’ve heard some terrible things. I know, and I am so sorry. Know that there is good. There are moments and seconds and minutes and days filled with joy and peace. There are people who love you. There are kindnesses. There are strangers who hold doors. There are children who say goofy things. There are puppies. There are flowers. There are good things. Don’t let yourself lose sight of those moments. Treasure them. Let them carry you through the badness. You can get through this.