Affirmation 4/4/18

You are not your past. You are not things that have happened to and around you. You are right now. You are this moment. Those things have shaped you, but they do not define you. The past ends, but you’ve continued. You’ve continued long beyond where the past ended. You are right now, and right now is absolutely beautiful.

I’m glad you’re here.


Affirmation 3/23/18

Friend, let go. The past is done. You can’t change it. Let go. Learn from the experience and move forward. You can do this. I know, but because your past does not define you.

I’m glad you’re here.

Affirmation 3/2/18

Sometimes setbacks happen. Sometimes things don’t pan out like we want. Sometimes we fail. Those things are not the whole story. That is not where things end. Take what has happened, embrace it, learn from it, and move forward with your new knowledge in hand. Embrace your setbacks. Embrace your so-called failures. They still have value. They do not define you. They are not your definition. You are so much more than one moment.

I’m glad you’re here.

Affirmation 8/18/17

You are not the past. You are not your pains. You are not deep-set hurts. You are not the actions of others. You are beautiful and powerful and strong and doing spectacular things. Do not let the hurts of the past control you. Remember them. Learn from them. Grow from them. They do not define you. You are so much more than a year ago, a week ago, a day ago. You’re remarkable.

I’m glad you’re here.

Affirmation 8/9/17

Your pains do not define you. Your pains do not define you. You are the sum of all of your parts. Yes, the hurt, but also all of that beauty, all of that good. We all have pain, and yours is valid. It is, but it is not all that you are. You are so much more.

I’m glad you’re here.

Adventure in shifting focus and the Christian relationship

I spent 17 years in Christian schools. Kindergarten through college. I would estimate that of the 58 other people with whom I graduated high school that 60 percent of them are now married. Another 20 percent would consider themselves to be in committed relationships. The other 20 percent, the rest of us, a generous guess with 20 percent, we remain unattached.

Personally, I’m glad. Huntington University, as Dr. Ruthi has mentioned, cultivated in the campus this need to be in a relationship. This need to be married. It continues to cultivate that idea. I recently attended a wedding, two HU grads. The pastor said in his little sermon that if you aren’t married you aren’t fulfilling God’s will for your life. Well…damn.

Well, it’s all really started me thinking. Because until quite recently I did not have the typical onslaught of lady hormones most women have. It turns out that annoying thing in women that makes them boy crazy and absolute idiots about wanting to be in a relationship, that actually has a lot to do with chemistry. This has put in me that basic need, something I previously scoffed at. I’d watch my friends go nuts over some guy or any guy for that matter and just think, “Ladies, you’re just…this is why people think we’re dumb.”

I’d see kids my age, at the time 18 or even 22, getting married. As an 18-year-old I thought Wicked was the crowning glory of musical theatre. Relient K was the best of all music. Scarves counted as winter coats. Steak n Shake was a treat. I thought I never wanted to get married. I thought children were annoying. And I thought God was calling me to theatre.

As it turns out the world of musical theatre is not only for anyone, but me, but it also offers a bounty of shows outside of Wicked. (Thank God for Jason Robert Brown) Relient K, while awesome, is not the end all be all of music. Scarves, ok that one might still be true. Steak n Shake is midnight food only. I some day might actually like to get married, and some kids aren’t so bad.

My point is I didn’t know myself well enough to think I could know the kind of man I should marry. I hardly know myself now.

In discussions with Dr. Ruthi, a few current HU girls and an old friend from the university I think our biggest failing in this pursuit for relationships is our selfishness. Not in the relationship, but in wanting one. We pursue them and desire them for our own benefit.

I’m lonely. A boyfriend would be nice to have. I’m sad. A boyfriend would be nice to have. But we aren’t called into relationships exclusively for our benefit. Yes, God created Eve so Adam would not be alone, to make life easier. But it remains that we were created for God’s glory. The instant our focus becomes anything other than God things start to go to hell.

We get shaken by our loneliness and turn to people rather than the one we know is always there. Yes, people are physical. We can receive a hug and know they’re there. But perhaps that’s where we lose it. That’s where it becomes about us. Is a relationship benefiting the Kingdom? That’s the question I have to ask myself. How can we as a team better serve the Kingdom than we could apart?

My heart breaks as I watch these girls being hurt by gossip and their own stupidity. If you kiss a boy people will talk, especially if you aren’t in a committed relationship with him. Especially, if you’re on a small Christian campus. Kiss several boys, you just became the town trollop. And people are going to talk about it, because that’s what we do. It’s easier to hurt other people than to look at our own failings. BUT it’s also easier to be hurt by people than look at our own failings. Because, as it turns out, gossip can often be so hurtful because it has a tendency to be true. If people are using choice words like “whore” to describe you, maybe stop making out with every boy who’s nice to you. Shift your focus, because you’re using that boy aren’t you? To fulfill a need or desire in your.

We let our relationships define us. We all do. Don’t let the overwhelming desire for a relationship define you. In I Corinthians 7 Paul suggests it’s better to be single if you can handle yourself. However, if your sexual need becomes so great that you can’t control yourself then, yeah, get married.

Which brings up another interesting point. Because that then implies that a sexual drive becomes a higher focus and priority than the Kingdom. One would think if you can redirect your focus then it would be less of an issue. And yet that is the basis on which many young Christian marriages are formed. “We want to have sex. We currently love each other. We will be married.” I hold that there is still a lack of focus. And it’s sad, because it results in a lot of broken marriages for all the wrong reasons. (for those counting there aren’t that many biblically sound reasons for divorce) Because that focus is still not quite centered.

“Jesus. Yes, important. But look at my dress!” But how do you tell someone they’re getting married too young, to the wrong person or for the wrong reasons?

It raises another interesting question that infuriates a lot of people. Why date if you have no intention of marrying in the future at all or that particular person? “I’m bored.” “He’s convenient.” “He makes me feel good about myself.” Well, aren’t you really just hurting a relationship? Couldn’t you do more for the Kingdom as friends? So that later when that relationship falls apart, you aren’t just like the rest of the world. And you haven’t hurt each other and you have made for a hard situation in social circumstances. Think of how much better we could do carrying each other in community as brothers and sisters instead of boyfriend and girlfriend for the sake of it.